It happened about a little over a year ago. A night when I was getting the kids ready for bed and I just couldn’t imagine doing the next day. I couldn’t imagine doing the bare minimum let alone the things I felt I was called to be doing in ministry at the time. Just getting the kids jammied and brushed was heavy to my heart.
I didn’t want to go to bed, because I knew that I’d wake up and it would be morning and I’d have to face another day. I never once thought of ending life, I just couldn’t really imagine doing it the next day. I remember it clearly because it may have been one of my lowest points. Ever.
In the past year, I’ve had to take steps back from some aspects of ministry from time to time due to this past weariness.
There were many reasons for my being weary but I will spare you those details. You will most likely be able to relate to my weary episode because of your own circumstances. Most of us will go through times or a time of feeling weary in life and of life. Some are more severe than others.
Rest is good when we need it. In the midst of stepping away at times, I have been reminded of the reason to pick it back up and continue on.
In times of weariness, I would not be able to take a break and come back if I were doing it out of my own human-centered motivations. I am always spurred on to return to the work God has for me out of a grateful response to Jesus’ life, death and resurrection.
The knowledge of my identity in Christ, drives what I do with my life.
Suffering and weariness can draw me to rest, but I am compelled to not remain there.
“Therefore let those who suffer according to God’s will entrust their souls to a faithful Creator while doing good.” (1 Peter 4:19)
Perhaps there have been times that you have suffered in a way that has made you want to retreat from ministry entirely. Not just due to weariness, but due to suffering a personal hurt. Maybe it felt more like a personal death.
Even then, we can entrust our souls to a faithful Creator…while doing good.
This is a short encouragement today to those who have been taking steps back from ministry to return.
If your heart and soul is right with God and if you have received some rest and refreshment, consider prayerfully taking a baby step toward ministry?
Serving the Father is congruent with who we truly are in Christ and this feeds the soul too.
But what if a time comes when you or I don’t see much or any tangible fruit from the ministry we believe God has called us to? Do we quit?
“And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up. 10 So then, as we have opportunity, let us do good to everyone, and especially to those who are of the household of faith.” (Galations 6:9)
Perhaps a lack of fruit in ministry means we should be seeking answers in prayer about how we are doing ministry. Maybe He is calling us to a different ministry. Or perhaps, we are to just keep pushing on in the ministry just as we’ve been. God will guide us down the right path as we turn to Him and seek Him in the midst of challenges.
Seeking God’s guidance and direction and then waiting on Him can take time. The wait can be hard, but we can know this for sure right now:
We are called to continue to do good out of our true identity in Christ and we can continue doing this good knowing that in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.
I am so grateful for the ministry of my church. The people doing good there to the household of faith have ministered to me well and have been a huge part of me being able to take steps toward rest and steps toward ministry. They have continued to do good, and I am a grateful recipient of it. Me being blessed is a fruit of their labor. They are God’s way of tangibly affirming these truths to me.
Blessings as you continue to serve the Lord and His beautiful household of faith!
Linking up with these sweet ladies this week. Please consider checking out their blogs, I love them all!